I know it’s been a while since you’ve heard from me, but it’s not because I am ignoring you. I’ve been quiet, but that’s because I have work of a different type that has been keeping me busy and away from my home on the web. I had considered turning this into a long essay, but instead, feel it’s better to turn it into bullet points to prevent me from wandering from topic to topic without any kind of structure.
1. For the past year plus, I’ve been working with an amazing pancreatic cancer organization called Let’s Win. Let’s Win enables patients, doctors, and researchers to share information on potentially life-saving pancreatic cancer treatments and trials that go beyond the standard of care.
It’s definitely soul work. My husband and I have a good friend who lost his wife to pancreatic cancer over a decade ago and I knew going in this would be something I’d always be passionate about — helping people by communicating information they so desperately need and that wasn’t widely available. It makes my heart feel good to be focused at this level and to continue building something that will help others long term after such a dreadful diagnosis.
2. I’m working on me. You see, I’ve needed to do a lot of work that I’ve ignored for years. Deep, personal work that is ugly and emotional. Every second of every day, I’m learning to show up for me. To find out who I am and face my fears. Every week I’m either in the chair with my shrink or my life coach. Both of them call me on my crap and make me realize that the love I have for myself is not only more than I’ve ever thought possible, but it’s something that I owe me.
I told my husband when I started this process that I knew I was going to change and I hoped he liked me as much going forward as he did at the beginning. I’m nearly a year in and he just told me he likes me at least as much, if not more. You can’t hear and see the sigh of relief I just released, but it’s there.
3. My son is entering his senior year of high school. I don’t discuss him much online on purpose — his life is his and not mine to share without his permission. That being said, I’m incredibly proud of him and the hard work he’s put into school and know it will pay off when he starts applying to colleges. I’m sure I will write about that from a personal perspective in the future. Knowing it’s his last year at home, I’m spending as much time as I can with him to soak it all in before he flies our nest to experience his future.
4. I’m working with UNC-Children’s Hospital. More to come on that here in the next week, but it will be a lot of fun. If you live in North Carolina, or love UNC, and want to support me as I walk to raise funds for this amazing organization who guarantees treatment for all patients in all 100 counties in NC, then I will share the info soon. If you want to join me on the walk, email me or leave me a comment here and we will coordinate our plans!
5. I’m traveling. A lot. With my family and solo. Thankfully I can stick my work gear in a bag and work from anywhere. Since I work remotely for my agency, it is easy to set up camp wherever I choose. One day, in the not so distant future, I’ll share some of those stories here.
6. I’m writing a book. Actually, a series. I have been working on this for some time, but things are getting serious with the stage I’m at, so much I felt it was necessary to say “I’m a writer.” Which is why that personal work I mentioned in number 2 is so important, because fear is a ____________ (insert your choice of profanity).
How are you, friends?